Saturday, May 16, 2009

What is My Resolution... ?

Been thinking, thinking and thinking,
What I could have done to make you happier..
This is the thing I would never do to anyone except for one(my fish of course),
But,
It seems my effort haven been enough,
Merely thinking is not enough,
I have to do something to cheer her up,
The one who I treasure the most..

Recently I kinda feel that i dropping into EMO state,
However,
I really not EMO-ing,
I am just in a state of Dont know what to do,
Looks sad Looks moody
But I am just thinking.

Am I really that stupid?
Am I really THAT stupid..??!!!
Why a simple thing I also cannot solve.
Haiy,No choice.
Maybe I am indeed that stupid T T
Hope can think of a solution.
I must think of a way.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Anticipating disappointment?

Today was supposed to be a nice day,
I have been anticipating today for days,
But why,
I just feeling unhappy,
Not to say pure unhappy,
Or more precisely to be said disappointed,
I dont really know why but,
It just that way.

Been rounding my mind for hours,
No matter walking, sitting or sleeping,
Dunno what to do and not really know what will help,
Should I confront or should I let it through?
A hard choice huh..
Anyway, Just let it be natural.

This semester, I dont like it,
Feel like i lost lots of thing,
Lost for nothing worth,
Too much negativity this semester,
Made me feel kinda bored.

Seems lonely and neglected,
Though not really is but,
Feeling is complicated,
I myself also dont know how to describe it.

7 am ler,
Not in mood of sleeping though,
What to do hah..
Just over time lo..
Nth else to do..
SIen...

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Good Starting . . .

Holiday started roughly 1 week liao,
Kinda boring,
seems like nothing else to do,
Just sitting playing and rolling only :P ,

Anyway, this holiday started my keep fit programme,
LOL, Though name looks nice but just is some reducing meal
and some exercises only,
Not only for keep fit, I also treated it as be healthy,
Seems like Sg. Long lifestyle is affecting my health,
Everyday yumcha, not seems to be a good thing, HAHA

Today is DAY 3 of my schedule,
Everything seems nice,
But cause long time not exercise,
Muscle seems to be straining and a little hurting,
Anyway,
That's the consequences of my relaxing lifestyle in Sg Long, LOL
Now exercise back,
Seems a bit ashamed,LOL
If compared to myself few years ago,
The amount of work out I did now,
Is just HALF,
OMG...
Looks like, I really old le..
But Luckily, Still managed to cope with it,

Not really sure how many day is left for holiday,
I just treated it as 21 days,
Sort of the day for my planning..

KEEP IT UP..
GOOD STARTING..
WAY TO GO...

Monday, May 11, 2009

Haiss..wad can I do now...?

Finally, exam over le,
But,
I dont think my result will be nice,
Not cos of unable to get an A,
Also afraid of failing,
This semester, I have been trying my best,
Keep striving up, crawling up,Putting all my effort,
The best effort I put in so far,
Now, It all seems useless,
Kinda feel,
Why I should work so hard for something that cannot be accomplish,

Haisss,

Not even wanna think of it,
but what can I do,
Been a week, but everything,
seems to be flying around my head,
Seems like stacking there..
DAmm it..

Holiday should be happy but,
I just cant make myself happy,
What the Heck is Happening..

Anyway, I had prepared myself for the worst situation.
Just hoping that it wont be that bad,
Otherwise, I really dono what should i do,
If the hole is not too big,
I still can manage to cover it,
But,
How if it is too large for me to cover..?

Anyway, Cheer up..
Hoping everything will be back,
Should be hapi, talkative,
so that it sound like me..lol..